Sunday, November 30, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
还记得吗?
身在一个完全陌生的环境,第一次接触 陌生人的感觉,
那种害怕而无助,焦急而不知所措的感觉。。。。想哭,
但是一想到妈妈说自己已经长大了,必须要乖乖的去上课。。就把眼泪忍了下来。。
心里总在尝试的了解什么是上课?什么时候才可以看到妈妈来接我回家。。。
那种感觉应该不可能会忘记吧??
最近,
这种感觉突然又在一次涌现了。。。。
这次,我又再一次的被留下。。。
虽然这次,我长大了很多很多,但是眼泪居然是忍不下来了。。
一想到前面一个人的路,实在是有一点走不下去了。。
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
最最最
智力測驗平均最低者:雙魚座男生、魔羯座女生
機靈反應能力最佳者:雙子座男生、處女座女生
機靈反應能力最差者:金牛座男生、金牛座女生
最重視倫理道德的人:巨蟹座男生、魔羯座女生
最漠視倫理道德的人:射手座男生、獅子座女生
最懂得羅曼蒂克的人:雙子座男生、雙魚座女生 (kekekeke....)
最不懂羅曼蒂克的人:處女座男生、魔羯座女生
用情最為專一者: 巨蟹座男生、魔羯座女生
用情最為善變者: 雙子座男生、水瓶座女生
最有女人味的人: 雙魚座男生、雙魚座女生 (compliment again!)
最有男子氣概的人: 魔羯座男生、牡羊座女生
做事最上進最積極者:牡羊座男生、牡羊座女生
做事最慢條斯理者: 金牛座男生、雙魚座女生 ( hei meh?)
用情最深最無私心者:巨蟹座男生、雙魚座女生 (maybe....)
用情最淺要求最多者:獅子座男生、雙子座女生
用錢概念最節儉的人:金牛座男生、處女座女生
用錢概念最奢侈的人:射手座男生、獅子座女生
最有理財概念的人: 天秤座男生、巨蟹座女生
最沒有理財概念的人:牡羊座男生、獅子座女生
最有多才多藝的人: 雙子座男生、雙魚座女生 (thank you thank you ;))
最缺乏才藝性的人: 魔羯座男生、金牛座女生
最有家庭概念的人: 巨蟹座男生、巨蟹座女生
最沒有家庭概念的人:雙子座男生、射手座女生
心機最重的人: 處女座男生、天蠍座女生
最沒心機的人: 射手座男生、雙魚座女生 (kekekeke...izzit??!!)
最會記愁的人: 天蠍座男生、處女座女生
最不記愁的人: 獅子座男生、雙魚座女生 (i think i really cann't remember except 1 person)
做事最有計劃的人: 天蠍座男生、水瓶座女生
做事最沒計劃的人: 雙魚座男生、雙魚座女生 (i think my planning not bad...)
做事最貫徹始終的人:天蠍座男生、魔羯座女生
做事最虎頭蛇尾的人:射手座男生、獅子座女生
最大方的人: 獅子座男生、獅子座女生
最小氣的人: 金牛座男生、處女座女生
最愛乾淨的人: 天秤座男生、處女座女生
最不愛乾淨的人: 獅子座男生、射手座女生
最熱愛自由的人: 牡羊座男生、射手座女生
對自由最不關心的人:處女座男生、巨蟹座女生
最愛說大話的人: 獅子座男生、牡羊座女生
最謙遜有禮的人: 巨蟹座男生、天秤座女生
最情緒化的人: 巨蟹座男生、牡羊座女生
情緒最穩定的人: 水瓶座男生、天秤座女生
最有領導欲望的人: 獅子座男生、射手座女生
最甘心被人領導的人:處女座男生、雙魚座女生 ( i dun mind pun)
最善解人意的人: 巨蟹座男生、雙魚座女生 (kekekek..probably??!!)
最木頭的人: 處女座男生、魔羯座女生
最心細的人: 天蠍座男生、巨蟹座女生
最粗心的人: 牡羊座男生、牡羊座女生
最會做夢的人: 巨蟹座男生、雙魚座女生 (day dreamer,kekeke used to be & sometime still)
最實際的人: 金牛座男生、天秤座女生
最會寫情書的人: 雙魚座男生、巨蟹座女生
最不會寫情書的人: 牡羊座男生、金牛座女生
最受異性歡迎的人: 雙子座男生、雙魚座女生 (izzit????)
最不受異性青睞的人:處女座男生、魔羯座女生
對異性有征服慾望者:獅子座男生、牡羊座女生
對異性無征服欲望者:處女座男生、雙魚座女生 (pls 征服 me!)
最好色者: 金牛座男生、天蠍座女生 (OMG! Rain!!)
最不好色者: 水瓶座男生、魔羯座女生
最會調情的人: 天蠍座男生、雙魚座女生 (kekekek...wanna try?)
最不會調情的人: 天秤座男生、魔羯座女生
最愛好和平的人: 金牛座男生、巨蟹座女生
最愛引起爭端的人: 獅子座男生、牡羊座女生
最愛好自然的人: 雙子座男生、天蠍座女生
最欣賞人工的人: 射手座男生、射手座女生
最愛營造溫馨氣氛者:巨蟹座男生、巨蟹座女生
最愛另類怪異者: 天秤座男生、水瓶座女生
最喜歡玄學算命的人:天蠍座男生、雙魚座女生 ( if not, i will not be posting this post)
最鐵齒的人: 水瓶座男生、雙子座女生
kekekeke, i think it is quite true for my case, at least the original me, but ppl do grow and change over the years with the living experience....but seems like pisces does get a good compliment boh.....
If u r interested, go online and check this, i think it is really accurate regarding horoscope ;)
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
RM499 to London one-way, five times a week
Premium seats will also go for RM1,999 one-way during the same travel period.
Online bookings begin at 8pm Tuesday night (Malaysian time) for the five times a week direct flights, AirAsia X CEO Azran Osman-Rani announced at the route launch at London’s County Hall.
Who wan to come, now can really plan liao!!!!!!!!
come come come!
Monday, November 24, 2008
早睡早(??)起,身体好!
出了社会,工作得太累了,11 点就到头大睡了,就连出去玩,我都会像灰姑娘似的赶在12点就回家了。。。
同事们都知道我的(坏)习惯, 就算是一起去旅行,也都会让我去自动消失去睡觉的。。。
最近天气转冷了,起床就变得更加的困难!好几次都起不了床, 其实是离不开那温暖的被窝。。
嗯。。。到底我想写些什么呢??
一定是冻傻了。。。
赶紧去睡觉了,要不然明天又要起不了床了。。。。。。
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Calls from Far
This afternoon while i was doing my grocery shopping, Alvin call me! informing me that all of them are having farewell dinner (dunno how many time farewell liao!) at the Hakka restaurant (hornestly, i am Hakka but how come i never been there b4 geh???? Joo!! bring me there next time!) Not sure how many of them are there but can hear all the noise (as usual where there is the toyo gang, there is the noise!). After a few chat and some special thing requested from Alvin (wink! wink!), i put down the phone and continue my shopping.
Later, Joo call me, this time they are in Karaoke, i think all almost drunk!! singing and shouting!!! I can hear qiong singing a chinese song (where i used to do the translation to him)in the background! and Joo also sing along...just like that i listen to the whole song....
Awh~~~ so touch!!! feel like i was there with them together! just feel like the same old days that we used to have............
Basically my toyo gang are all around in different places liao....hardly to get together again for a big big gathering.....I know we miss each other very much and i am sure all of them treasured the friendship as much as I did!
I is my pleasure to had such a wonderful Colleagues, Teammates, Friends, HH Kakis, Traveling kakis !!!!!!!Thank you for giving me such a precious memories while i am in Toyo!
All the best to Qiong for his new career and my best wishes to my toyo gang!
I miss all of u!!!!!
'hug' 'hug'
Snowing again b4 winter comes......
Saturday Highest 3degC, Lowest -3DegC
Sunday highest 6degC, Lowest -2DegC
Maybe snow again in London on sunday morning ........
How to go out???
This kind of weather, make me desperate for a human heater :P
Cold Cold Cold
Recipe for Scone
120g Raisin and small amount of orange juice to soak the raisins
450g Self-raising flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
120g butter
salt
2 large egg
5 table spoons milk
To make you dough
Preheat oven to 200degC/ 400F/ gas6.
Soak raisin with orange juice
Mix flour and baking powder and butter, rub them together by hand untl the mixture starts to look like breadcrumbs.
Make a well in middle.
beat egg and milk, drain raisin and add into beaten egg and milk with a pinch of salt
Pour in to the flour mixture and mix well until u have a soft, dry dough.
Roll out the dough untils its 2cm thick, cut in to size and brush some milk on the top of each scone. Bake for 12 to 15mins until risen and brown.
Take out from oven and place into a wire rack to cool.
Homemake strawberry Jam
Crush strawberry by hand, add sugar and bring to boil until the juice become thicken.
Happy trying!!!!!!
Dun forget to serve with the traditional english afternoon tea oh!!!!!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Plan for this long weekend
2. To apply provision license at post office and hence will plan for driving lesson and test at the begining of next yr.
3. Finish my long dragged Water colour painting.
4. Bake Scone and go with homemake strawberry jam. (will show photo if it is successfully made :))
If i dun show, means the process is not successful, so u also no need to ask me lar, sik do a bit lo!
See how many tasks i can finish huh..... me orang ni malas sangat 1 lor...tomorrow wake up then sien liao...dun wan to go out and will mushrooming whole day at home geh loh.......
hihihihihih
anyway, i am happy cos....it is another long weekdn for me :)
akakakkakakakaka
Big Day for Siaw Ching & Chee Kiat, 22nd Nov 2008
Sorry that I couldn't make it for ur wedding :(
May the two of you share a happy life together forever!
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Winter on this weekend
Some places might get showering snow.......
ehm...better wrap myself thoroughly and stay at home since i am going to have the friday off :)
kekekekeke....
So fast another friday again off after i return from Wales.
I will go to Manchester on my next friday off :) (5th-7th Dec)
Then the following friday off, i will be going off for my skiing trip liao (21st- 28th Dec)
kakakakakak.....
Back to the topic , (kekeke, once talk about traveling, i will forgot everything liao...)
To All that in UK, pls wear more cloths starting on friday!!!!! It will be freezing ! I think it is time to gorek out my gloves liao....dunno where i put pun :P
tick, tock, tick, tock.........
Can u fall asleep when u had a clock that tick with sound???
Suprisingly, I am very sensetive on this sound,
I can tahan snoring or other sound but I just couldn't bare with the routine tick, tock, tick, tock sound......
It was really kind when someone do take care about this small issue :) Impressive :)
P/S: recently i had been waken up by dog barking in the middle of night! i think my neighbor put the dog outsite and it was toooo cold for the dog and he just keep on barking at night. Last night, i heard someone shout 'shut up' loud from my apartment( but i wonder whether the dog can understand or not )!!!! Pls keep ur dog inside ur home lar!!!! I already consider myself not so easy to be awaken, but still being waken up by the barking........sign.....as a result, i feel sleepy again today although i slept at 11pm last night :(
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Sleep
Always chatting with friends until my Miao (in australia) and my sister (in Msia) also start their work liao.
Therefore, always feel sleepy at office especially after lunch..somemore i dun have much work to do recently...feel very boring sitting in the office ler.....
Anyway, i decided to sleep earlier from now on!
Not young liao, must keep my beauty sleep as much as possible....
Ok loh....1058pm liao..time to go to oi oi liao....
Have a nice day !!!
Inflation and Deflation
Normally, we only know about inflation where cost of living keep on climbing up.
Now UK worry about deflation , whereby the inflation rate become a negative figure!
Due to the decrease of oil price and food price, UK inflation rate falls from 5.2% in september to 4.5% in October! the biggest falls since 1992. Now the government worry if the spenting power is not strong, UK will go into deflation soon. Not sure how deflation will affect the whole economy but it sounds a bit serious where the government is now trying to cut interest rate and also tax to encourage people spending!
So, I guess it is time for me to help a bit on the UK economy liao :P
kekekekeekkeke
Cirque de Soleil- Quidam
This time, Cirque De Soleil is back with the title QUIDAM.
Below is the official website, click to view if u are interested! The show is on from 4th Jan 09 till 1st Feb 09 at the Royal Albert Hall!Dun miss it!
Click on the All Show button to view the video clips of all the available show!!
http://www.cirquedusoleil.com/world/en/uk/index.asp
P/S: Miao, Cirque De Soleil - Dralion showing in Perth from 29th Jan till 1st March. Pls click the below link to find out more, u and Lo shd go to have a look. Heard that Dralion is much better than Quidam :)Click on the small icon n view the video clip.
http://www.cirquedusoleil.com/World/en/uk/shows/dralion.asp
同一个想法..
虽然这部片子有美女Gwyneth Paltrow 主演,但是这套戏其实并不出名,应该没有什么人看过的!
最近与朋友谈起了这一部电影,大家突然有一拍即合 的感觉, 因为大家都同样的被这套电影启发了一个想法!
有时,即使是一部 毫不起眼的电影,只要是题材对了, 就会触动到观众的心, 留下一道永不忘记的脚印。。
今天,我打算把这部戏再看一便,其实故事内容早已经忘的七七八八了, 留在心里的也只是一种感觉。。。有机会,你们也看一看吧!然后记得告诉我你的看后感哦!
Monday, November 17, 2008
The Body World Exhibition
From Wiki:
Each Body Worlds exhibition contains approximately 25 full-body plastinates with expanded or selective organs shown in positions that enhanced the role of certain systems. More than 200 specimens of real human organs and organ systems are displayed in glass cases, some showing various medical conditions.
Some of the bodies include prosthetics such as artificial hip joints or heart valves. Also featured is a liver with cirrhosis. The lungs of a smoker and non-smoker are placed side by side. A prenatal display features fetuses and embryos, some with congenital disorders.
All exhibits are accompanied with detailed descriptions and audio guides with the option of beginner or advanced (for laymen or medical professionals, respectively).
To produce specimens for Body Worlds, von Hagens employs 340 people at five laboratories in four countries. Each laboratory is categorized by specialty, with the China laboratory focusing on animal specimens.[7] One of the most difficult specimens to create was the giraffe that appeared in Body Worlds 3 & The Story of the Heart. The specimen took three years to complete – ten times longer than it takes to prepare a human body. Ten people were required to move the giraffe, because its final weight (like all specimens after plastination) was equal to its original.[8]
Several Body Worlds exhibits (as well as von Hagens himself) were featured in the 2006 film Casino Royale. Among the plastinates featured were the "Poker Playing Trio" (which plays a key role in one scene) and "Rearing Horse and Rider
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Boiler Trip AGAIN
好无奈。。。。。。
suppose to upload some photo from my Windsor Castle trip de, but was too exhausted after boiling 4 kettle of hot waters and shower in the cold.....
maybe tomorrow lar..soli ar
Thursday, November 13, 2008
PPE (Personal Protective Equipment)
Today’s talk is about PPE.
PM started with safety at site and safety in DIY at home.
And he says that he was surprise to find that the PPE in B&Q is expensive, so project think that it is equal important for the staff to have the right PPE at work and also at home while doing DIY, so project buy each of us a set of PPE including safety goggle, a pair of thick gloves, ear plug and also mask!
Waoh…..so thoughtful 1 ……
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
UK in Recession
Unemployment raise to 1.82million and expected to reach 3million by end of 2009.
Government already annouce a 1.5% cut of interest from 4.5% down to 3% and today, it hints again that the interest rate will go down as a record low at 2% in order to boost the economy!
Ehm....all this figure might not sounds anything to u, but it obviously hints u that be prepare for the economy downturn storm!!!!!!
Sad...
不要跟你所在乎的人 ~ 嘔氣太久
不要跟你所在乎的人 ~ 嘔氣太久~~會讓你一輩子都後悔的!!
<感人的故事>
疼惜您所擁有的珍藏,追尋您所期盼的夢想-----這是個真實的故事(蘆荻口述 連淑香整理)
一個個無情的誤解,打亂了幸福的腳步。
當命運的死結終於用代價打開,一切都為時已晚。
接婆婆來家安度晚年﹐結果卻背離我們的初衷﹐結婚二年後﹐先生跟我商量把婆婆從鄉下接來安度晚年。先生很小時父親就過世了﹐他是婆婆唯一的寄託﹐婆婆一個人扶養他長大﹐供他讀完大學。'含辛茹苦'這四個字用在婆婆的身上﹐絕對不為過!我連連說好﹐馬上給婆婆收拾出一間南向帶陽台的房間﹐ 可以曬太陽﹐養花草什麼的。先生站在陽光充足的房間﹐一句話沒說﹐卻突然舉起我在房間裡轉圈﹐在我張牙舞爪地求饒時﹐先生說﹕'接咱們媽去。'先生身材高大﹐我喜歡貼著他的胸口﹐感覺嬌小的身體隨時可被他抓起來塞進口袋。當我和先生發生爭執而又不肯屈服時﹐先生就把我舉起來﹐在腦袋上方搖搖晃晃﹐ 一直到我嚇得求饒。 這種驚恐的快樂讓我迷戀。婆婆在鄉下的習慣一時改不掉。我習慣買束鮮花擺在客廳裡﹐婆婆後來實在忍不住﹕'你們娃娃不知道過日子﹐買花幹什麼?又不能當飯吃!'我笑著說﹕'媽﹐家裡有鮮花盛開﹐人的心情會好。'婆婆低著頭嘟噥﹐先生就笑﹕'媽﹐這是城裡人的習慣﹐慢慢的﹐你就習慣了。' 婆婆不再說什麼﹐但每次見我買了鮮花回來﹐依舊忍不住問花了多少錢﹐我說了﹐他就'嘖嘖'咂嘴。有時﹐見我買大包小包的東西回家﹐她就問這個多少錢那個多少錢﹐我─如實回答﹐她的嘴就咂的更響了。先生擰著我的鼻子說﹕'小傻瓜你別告訴她真實價錢不就行了嗎?'快樂的生活漸漸有了不和諧的聲音。 婆婆最看不慣我先生起來做早餐。在她看來﹐大男人給老婆燒飯﹐哪有這個道理?早餐桌上﹐婆婆經常陰著一張臉﹐我裝做看不見。婆婆便把筷子弄得叮噹亂響﹐這是她無聲的抗議。我在少年宮做舞蹈老師﹐跳一整天舞已夠累的了﹐早晨暖洋洋的被窩﹐我不想扔掉這惟一的享受﹐於是﹐我對婆婆的抗議裝聾作啞。 婆婆偶爾願意幫我做一些家務﹐但她一做我就更忙了。比如﹐她把用過的垃圾袋通通收集起來﹐說等攢夠了賣廢塑料﹐搞得家裡到處都是廢塑料袋;她捨不得用洗潔精洗碗﹐為了不傷她的自尊﹐我只好偷偷再洗一遍。一次﹐我晚上偷偷洗碗被婆婆看見了﹐她'啪'的一聲摔上門﹐趴在自己的房間裡放聲大哭。 先生左右為難﹐事後﹐先生一晚上沒跟我說話﹐我撒嬌﹐耍賴﹐他也不理我。我火了﹐ 問他﹕'我究竟哪裡做錯了?'先生瞪著我說﹕'你就不能遷就一下﹐碗再不乾淨也吃不死人吧?'後來﹐好長一段時間﹐婆婆不跟我說話﹐家裡的氣氛開始逐漸尷尬。那段日子﹐先生活得很累﹐不知道要先逗誰開心好。婆婆為了不讓兒子做早餐﹐義無反顧地承擔起燒早飯的'重任'。 婆婆看著先生吃得快樂﹐再看看我﹐用眼神譴責我沒有盡到做妻子的責任。 為了逃避尷尬﹐我只好在上班的路上買包奶打發自己。睡覺時﹐先生有點生氣地問我﹕'蘆荻﹐是不是嫌棄我媽做飯不衛生才不在家吃?'翻了一個身﹐他扔給我冷冷的脊背﹐任憑我委屈的流淚。最後﹐先生嘆氣﹕'蘆荻﹐就當是為了我﹐你在家吃早餐行不行?'我只好回到尷尬的早餐桌上。那天早晨﹐我喝著婆婆煮的稀飯﹐忽然一陣反胃﹐肚子裡所有的東西都搶著向外奔跑﹐我拼命地壓抑著不讓它們往上翻湧﹐但還是壓不住﹐我扔下碗﹐衝進廁所﹐吐得稀裡嘩啦。當我喘息著平定下來時﹐聽見婆婆夾雜著家鄉話的抱怨和哭聲﹐先生站在衛生間門口憤怒地望著我﹐ 我乾張著嘴巴說不出話﹐我真的不是故意的。我和先生開始了第一次激烈的爭吵﹐婆婆先是瞪著眼看我們﹐然後起身﹐蹣跚著出門去了。先生恨恨地瞪了我一眼﹐下樓追婆婆去了。意外迎來新生命﹐卻突然葬送了婆婆的性命!整整三天﹐先生沒有回家﹐連電話都沒有。我正氣著﹐想想自從婆婆來後﹐我已經受夠委屈了﹐還要我怎麼樣? 莫明其妙的﹐我最近總想嘔吐﹐吃什麼都沒有胃口﹐加上亂七八糟的家事﹐心情差到了極點。後來﹐還是同事告訴我﹕'蘆荻﹐你臉色很差﹐還是去醫院看看吧。'醫院檢查的結果是我懷孕了。我明白了那天早晨我為什麼突然嘔吐﹐幸福中夾著一絲幽怨﹕先生和曾經是過來人的婆婆﹐他們怎麼就絲毫沒有想到這點呢?在醫院門口﹐我看見了先生。僅僅三天沒見﹐他憔悴了許多。 我本想轉身就走﹐但他的模樣讓我心疼﹐沒忍住﹐我喊了他。先生循著聲音看見了我﹐卻好像不認識了﹐眼神裡有一絲藏不住的厭惡﹐這冰冷地刺傷了我。我跟自己說不要看他不要看他﹐伸手攔了一輛出租車。那時﹐我多想向先生大喊一聲﹕'親愛的我要給你生個寶貝了!'然後被他舉起來﹐幸福地旋轉。我希望的並沒有發生。在出租車裡﹐我的眼淚才遲遲地落下來。 為什麼一場爭吵就讓愛情糟糕到這樣的程度?回家後﹐我躺在床上想先生﹐想他滿眼的厭惡。我握著被子的一角哭了。夜裡﹐家裡有翻抽屜的聲音。打開燈﹐我看見先生淚流滿面的臉。他正在拿錢。我冷冷地看著他﹐一聲不響。他對我視若無睹﹐拿著存摺和鈔票匆匆離開。或許先生是打算徹底離開我了。 真是個理智的男人﹐情與錢分得如此清楚。我冷笑了幾下﹐眼淚'嘩啦嘩啦 '的流下來。 第二天﹐我沒去上班。想徹底清理一下自己的思緒﹐找先生好好談一談。找到先生的公司﹐秘書有點奇怪地看著我說﹕'陳總的母親出了車禍﹐這幾天都在醫院裡呢。'我瞠目結舌。飛奔到醫院﹐找到先生時﹐婆婆已經去世了。先生一直不看我﹐一臉僵硬。我望著婆婆幹瘦蒼白的臉﹐眼淚止不住﹕天哪!怎麼會是這樣?直到安葬了婆婆﹐先生也沒跟我說一句話﹐ 甚至看我一眼都帶著深深的厭惡。關於車禍﹐我還是從別人嘴裡了解到大概﹐婆婆出門後迷迷糊糊地向車站走﹐她想回老家﹐先生越追她走得越快﹐穿過馬路時﹐一輛公車迎面撞過來……我終於明白了先生的厭惡﹐如果那天早晨我沒有嘔吐﹐如果我們沒有爭吵﹐如果……在他的心裡﹐認定我是間接殺死他母親的罪人。先生默不作聲搬進了婆婆的房間﹐每晚回來都滿身酒氣。 而我一直被愧疚和可憐的自尊折騰得喘不過氣來﹐想跟他解釋﹐想跟他說我們快有孩子了﹐但看著他冰冷的眼神﹐又把所有的話都咽了回去。我寧願先生打我一頓或者罵我一頓﹐雖然這一切事故都不是我故意要它發生的。日子一天一天地窒息著重覆下去﹐先生回家的時間越來越晚。我們僵持著﹐比一般的陌生人還要尷尬。我是繫在他心上的死結。一次﹐我路過一家西餐廳﹐穿過透明的落地窗﹐ 我看見先生和一個年輕女孩面對面坐著﹐他輕輕地為女孩攏了攏頭髮﹐我就明白了這一切。先是呆住﹐然後我進了西餐廳﹐站在先生面前﹐死死盯著他看﹐眼裡沒有一滴淚。我什麼也不想說﹐也無話可說。女孩看看我﹐看看我先生﹐站起來想走﹐但我先生伸手按住她﹐然後﹐同樣死死地﹐一樣絕不示弱地看著我。我只能聽見自己緩慢的心跳﹐一下一下跳動在瀕臨死亡般的蒼白邊緣。 輸了的是我﹐如果再站下去﹐我會和肚子裡的孩子一起倒下的。那一夜﹐先生沒回家﹐他用這樣的方式讓我明白﹕隨著婆婆的去世﹐我們的愛情也死了。先生再也沒有回來過。有時﹐我下班回來﹐看見衣櫥有被動過──是先生回來拿一點自己的東西。我不想給他打電話﹐原先還有試圖向他解釋一番的念頭﹐但一切都已經徹底失去了。我一個人過生活﹐一個人去醫院作產檢﹐ 每每看見有男人小心地扶著妻子去做產檢﹐我的心便碎的不成樣子。同事隱約勸我拿掉算了﹐我堅決說不﹐我發瘋似的一定要生下這個孩子﹐也算是對婆婆的死的補償吧。我下班回來﹐先生坐在客廳裡﹐滿屋子煙霧彌漫﹐茶几上擺著一張紙。沒必要看﹐我知道那裡面寫了什麼內容。先生不在家的二個多月﹐我逐漸學會了平靜。我看著他﹐摘下帽子﹐說﹕'你等一下﹐我簽字。' 先生看著我﹐眼神複雜﹐和我一樣。我一邊解大衣扣子一邊在心裡對自己說﹕'不哭不能哭……'眼睛很疼﹐但我決不讓眼淚流出來。掛好大衣﹐先生的眼睛死死的盯著我已然隆起的肚子。我笑了笑﹐走過去﹐拖過那張紙﹐看也不看﹐簽上自己的名字﹐推還給他。'蘆荻﹐你懷孕了?'自從婆婆出事後﹐這是先生跟我說的第一句話。 我再也管不住眼睛﹐眼淚一瞬間嘩啦地流下來。我說﹕'是啊﹐不過沒事﹐你可以走了。'先生沒走﹐黑暗裡﹐我們對望著。先生慢慢趴在我身上﹐眼淚滲透了被子。而在我心裡﹐很多東西已經走遠了﹐遠到即使我奔跑都追不到了。不記得先生跟我說過多少遍'對不起'了﹐我也曾經以為自己會原諒﹐但卻不能﹐在西餐廳先生當著那個女孩的面﹐ 他那冰冷的眼神﹐這輩子﹐我忘記不了了。我們在彼此心上劃下了一道不可磨滅的傷痕。我的﹐是無意的;他的﹐是刻意的。期待著冰釋前嫌﹐但過去的已無法再重來!除了想起肚子裡的孩子時心裡是暖暖的﹐而對先生﹐我心是冷如冰霜﹐ 不吃他買的任何東西﹐不收他的任何禮物﹐不跟他多說一句話。從在那張紙上簽了字後﹐婚姻以及愛情統統在我的心裡消失了。有時先生試圖進臥室﹐他來﹐我就出去客廳﹐先生只好睡回婆婆的房間。夜裡﹐從先生的房間有時會傳來輕微的呻吟﹐我都一聲不響。這是他習慣玩的伎倆﹐以前只要我不理他了﹐他就裝病﹐我就會乖乖投降﹐關心他怎麼了﹐他就一把抓住我哈哈大笑。他似乎忘了﹐那時﹐我會心疼是因為有愛情﹐而現在﹐我們還有什麼?先生的呻吟斷斷續續的一直到孩子出生。他幾乎每天都在給孩子買東西﹐嬰兒用品﹐兒童用品﹐以及孩子喜歡的書﹐一包包的﹐快把他的房間堆滿了。我知道他是想用這樣的方式感動我﹐而我完全不為所動。他只好關在房間裡﹐用電腦'批哩啪啦'敲字﹐或許他正網戀吧﹐但對我已經是無所謂的事了。 隔年春未的一個深夜﹐劇烈的腹痛讓我叫了出來﹐先生一個箭步衝進來﹐好像他根本就沒脫衣服睡覺﹐為的就是等這一刻的到來。先生背起我就往樓下跑﹐攔車﹐一路上緊緊地握住我的手﹐不停地幫我擦掉額頭上的汗。到了醫院﹐背起我就往婦產科跑。趴在他幹瘦而溫暖的背上﹐一個念頭忽然闖進我心裡﹕這一生﹐還有人會像他這樣疼愛我嗎?先生扶著產房的門把喘息著﹐看著我被推進去﹐那眼神是暖融融的﹐我忍著陣痛對他笑了一下。從產房出來後﹐先生望著我和兒子﹐眼睛濕濕地笑啊笑啊的。我摸了一下他的手﹐卻是意外的冰冷先生望著我﹐微笑﹐然後﹐緩慢而疲憊地癱軟倒下。我放聲叫喊著他名字……先生依然笑著﹐但沒睜開那疲憊的眼睛……我以為這一生我再也不會為先生流一滴淚﹐ 而事實卻是﹐從沒有過的如此劇痛撕扯著我的身體。醫生說﹐我先生的肝癌發現時已是晚期﹐他能堅持這麼久真的算是奇蹟。我問醫生什麼 時候發現的?醫生說在五個月前﹐然後安慰我﹕'好好的準備後事吧。'我不顧護士的阻攔﹐回到家﹐衝進先生的房間打開電腦﹐心跳一下子被疼痛窒息了。先生的肝癌在五個月前就已發現﹐他在夜裡的呻吟是真的﹐ 我居然還以為…… 而電腦上滿滿的20多萬字﹐是先生寫給兒子的留言﹕孩子﹐為了你﹐我一直在堅持﹐我要撐到看你一眼再倒下﹐是我這一生最大的願望……我知道﹐你的一生會有很多快樂或者遇到挫折﹐如果我能夠陪你經歷這個成長歷程﹐那該有多麼美好﹐但我想爸爸我沒有這個機會了。爸爸在電腦上﹐把你一生可能遇到的問題一一地寫下來﹐ 當你之後遇到這些問題時﹐或許你可以參考爸爸給你的意見…………孩子﹐寫完這20多萬字﹐我感覺像陪你經歷了整個成長過程。真的﹐爸爸現在很快樂。好好愛你的媽媽﹐她很辛苦﹐她是這世上最愛你的人﹐也是我這世上最愛的人……從兒子去幼兒園到讀小學﹐讀中學﹐大學﹐到工作以及愛情種種方面﹐巨細靡遺都寫到了。先生也給我寫了留言﹕親愛的﹐娶了你是我一輩子最大的幸福﹐原諒我對你的傷害﹐原諒我隱瞞了病情﹐ 因為我想讓你有個好的心情等待孩子的出生……親愛的﹐如果你現在哭了﹐那代表你已經原諒我了﹐那我就會笑了﹐謝謝你一直愛著我…還為我生了個孩子…這些禮物﹐我想我是沒有機會親自送給孩子了﹐請你每年替我送他幾份禮物﹐包裝盒子上都寫好了送禮物的日期……親愛的…… 回到醫院﹐先生依舊在昏迷中。我把兒子抱過來﹐放在他身邊﹐我說﹕'你睜開眼笑一下吧﹐我要讓兒子記住在他爸爸懷裡的溫暖……'先生艱難地睜開眼﹐微微地笑了一下。兒子偎依在他懷裡﹐舞動著粉紅色的小手。我'喀嚓喀嚓'按下快門﹐淚水在臉上放肆地流…… 親愛的朋友們 :轉傳一篇感人的文章與你們分享,在你看完了故事,並哭紅你的雙眼時,請記得這個故事警惕我們,有話要講出來,不要憋在心裡,尤其是對於你所在乎的人。
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感动也只是那一刹那而已吧?? 大家很快的又把自己的情绪平服下来,继续用原本的态度过生活了吧??
炸弹疑魂!!!
过了5 分钟,警卫哥哥 再一次出现,表示我们必须要马上离开这栋办公楼,到公司campus 的另一端,炸弹 集合点 (可想而知,炸弹 集合点 就一定要离开所有的办公楼一段距离!)战战兢兢,拿起外套和手提袋就跟着人群走。(其实是不可以到回自己的座位那东西的,但是天气那么冷,怎么可能不穿外套呢??)一面走,就一面在想,会不会真的爆炸的???
走了10分钟,来到了集合点,另一栋办公楼的人也出来了!
哇!心想,这次应该很严重吧?? 因为我的公司连火警都没有演习过!因该不会炸弹演习吧?
等了20 分钟,被告知可以回去办公室了,原来只是一场演习!
cheh! 虚惊一场!
警卫哥哥 也演得太好了吧!!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
My New Book-Jamie's Ministry of Food
Saw this book in sainsbury, just pick it up and plan to learn a few more new dishes :)
I will post the outcome of my trying on those succesful masterpiece :)
Pls wait huh ;)
Pesto Salmon serve with Spaghetti
MAS Online Sales (10th to 12th Nov)
Going Japan starting from RM1.1k to Max RM1.4k jek!!!!!
Coming to London is only RM2.3K!!!!
Who wan to come??????
come lar!!! book ticket lar!!!!!!
come come come!!!!!
How i wish we can fixed the date to Hokkaido and get the cheap ticket! but too many uncertainty liao lar........
http://www.malaysiaairlines.com/campaign/2008/11/GOS/fares.asp?cid=MALAYSIA
Monday, November 10, 2008
Me and Rain in Pembrokeshire
St Davis, Cathedral
Pembroke Castle
On friday night, we arrived her house at dark and i didn't notice that the castle is just right in front of her door across the road. The next morning when i open the door, i was shock!!!!
kekekekeke, our friend is just staying next to a castle!! geng ler...
3 of Us in Wales
Wales Trip 7th~9th Nov
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Back from Wales
Traveling along with great companion and Met up with rain was the best!
Talk until 3am everynight and just cann;t stop chatting......
Wish i can have more time to spent there!
Wait huh..me tired..will upload photos tomorrow :)
Thursday, November 6, 2008
逃避现实的鱼
不管什么计划,什么打算, 一切都比不上变化!
假期过后,鱼儿又要再一次的把整副武装 穿上,乘风破浪去!
好累哦。。。。。
路该怎么走.....
原本即将在12 月开始的FEED (Front End Engineering Design) 将会延迟到明年的9月!
心马上往下沉!原本还很得意的认为自己好运!搭上了这班直开5 年的大船!
结果人算不如天算,还是停船了!
一下子,大家都乱了阵脚!就连我的Lead 也不知道即将发生什么事情!
也不知道我们这个小组会不会解散!
人心慌慌!
就连我一直很有信心的Oil and Gas industry 都因为这次的经济风暴而遭殃了~
担心啊!!!!!
接下来的路该怎么走呢?
但是,大家还是不用为我操心,我还不止于会被炒鱿鱼的!!
可能会被放逐到那些Azerbaijan或 Kazakhstan 之类的国家吧!
:)你们回来探访我的hor~~!!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
复杂的心情
另一边厢,我们的一个好姐妹Paggie ,今天平安的产下了她的第2个宝宝!更巧的是居然还和小雨同一天生日!大家都为了这件巧喜事高兴了半天!
难道生命就是这么无常吗?
希望宝宝可以健健康康 的长大!石井先生 和家人可以安然渡过这艰难的时刻....
(今天回电邮的心情也够extreme 了!两个那么extreme 的题目,心情必须转换的很快!有一点接近精神分裂的感觉!)
Bonfire Night, 5ht Nov
Since i dun have kaki this yr, so i just go home, hopefully can peek some firework thro my window ler!
It was poping sound everywhere, just make me feel exactly like chinese new year time :)
kekekeke...cann't wait to go home to enjoy the chinese new year!
Belacan Asparagus and Eggplant
Happy birthday, 5th Nov
Happy birthday to boy boy(ehm...still not inform by the name yet)!!(5th Nov)
Happy birthday to my sister Jia (5th Nov)
Happy birthday to my another sister Yee (5th Nov)
(okok, they are my blood related sister but they are not twins BUT they have the same birthday!)
Happy birthday to another sister, Rain( this is no blood related ji mui :)) (5th Nov)
Happy birthday to my cousin, Leong (5th nov)
Happy birthday to my friend, Vichetr (5th Nov)
Happy birthday to my cousin, Lay May (8th Nov)
why so many birthday in begining of Nov, just hv a chat with rain, maybe bcos of the CNY n valentine's period tat cos the baby blooming.
Nex time,I will check with paggie about the timing :P
I like scopion baby :) bcos it suppose to go well with Pisces :)
My Performance Review :)
I didn’t expect much since I just join in June and I was only assign to my current project 6 weeks ago.
My boss judge my performance, technical knowledge and development in ‘ Met Expectations’,
which is the average grade where ppl falls under.
The grading system is as below
DNM- Did not Meet Expectation: Did not do what is expected in the current role
MM- Met Most expectation: Met most of the expectations; rooms for further improvement
ME- Met Expectations
CME- Consistently Met expectation: Consistently Met expectation, exceed some expectations
EE-Exceeded expectation- Consistently exceeded expectations.
I am quite satisfied if they can give me 5% increment to cover the inflation rate in UK.
At this kind of economy, I am thankful to have a safe job with steady income, but if get a higher increment, then I can save more money lar…
kekeekekekekek
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Another sad news
1995, Senior Middle 3 Science (3)
kekekekekeke....everybody look so different in the photo, not sure u can reacognised me or not :P
啦啦.....
一定是知道我讨厌他,连名字耶不敢留下。。
还是不能忘记,这一生被人侮辱得那么厉害的一次!
从来并没有什么记仇,但是就是不能原谅他!
永不!
所以呢,讲话不要口不择言!
Monday, November 3, 2008
无奈。。。
最近朋友问了一个问题,在国外工作的你,到底想要得到什么才会想要回国呢?
抚心自问,自己是为了什么呢?
当初决定要来的时候,其实就是抱着和朋友一起过来到欧洲走走,钱赚不倒也就算了,只想了一了当年没来得及完成的欧洲之旅。
不知不觉,一年过去了,当初一起过来的朋友都 为自己做了打算,回去的回去了,要走的也即将要走了,就只有我决定留下。。。 我也不知道当初我是为了什么而决定留下的。。。现在又是什么把我继续留下呢?? 是钱吧?无可否认,过来后 是可以 把家里的担子减轻。。。
唉! 还是不要再想了,想来想去还是没有一个结果,顺其自然吧!! 总觉得我上辈子因该是做了些好事,这辈子托赖还过的还满顺利的, 桥到船头自然直吧!!
(其实呢,本来是很有心情写的,突然有人msn来,把我的情绪搞乱了,但也把我从情绪低谷拉回上来:)
Winter Disaster- Boiler Malfunction
When i came home, i try to turn on the boiler, it trip..reset, trip ,reset, trip x (n).............
so finally fed up....call up landlord, she gave me a number n ask me to deal directly to boiler man.... tomorrow have to call the boiler man, then make appointment to come to check, then quote to my landlady, then only can do!!! how long is this going to take?
I am freezing cold!!!! cos this boiler supply hot water and also centre heating to my house!!!!! now my room temperature is freezing and i have to wear thick cloths and socks to keep myself warm!
Just now i rush to sainsbury to buy a bucket and boil water for shower, damn, the tap water was too cold and the kettle water cann't even hot enuf to warm the tap water......i just cin cai shower jek.......
iayahhhhh, suffer lar!!!! very ma fan lar!
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Another Weekend
Saturday went out lunch with cousins, uncle and aunty that came from msia. After lunch, rush to do shopping at oxford street for Rain...kekekek basically only go in to Zara to sapu a few sweater for her , kekeke also buy 1 for myself too...(only 9 pound per sweater ler..), then go into Uniqlo to grab the thermal wear (again brought 1 for myself and also a set of winter pyjamas..kekek)
Rush home take shower and rush again to New Malden to join my chinese colleagues for a korean dinner.
This morning went out with friends to sapu many many balls...(ehm ehm, dun get me wrong, i mean fish ball, sotong ball, pork balls....and my favourite siew mai!! and also cahr siew pau, ofcos..all is frozen food lar) then went to meet friendsss, manage to meet a few more new friends for dim sum in wimbledon! Hei, the dim sum there not bad ne, next time no need to go so far to china town la..... can just drive to wimbledon n can eat dim sum and also do some chinese grocery shopping!
i found a good japanese restaurant and now a good chinese restaurant in wimbledon! Problem is when is my kaki coming back to enjoywith me ne???
My New Contact Number
Have u got my UK new mobile number? if u dun, pls leave me message and i will sent to u!
I hope i dun miss any of u out!
Love,
Seen